Thanks for all your support!
Especially some of the generous donators. 
I can finally order my new machine this week and I’m in your debt. Best followers ever!
A more than happy and still yours,
Cleo
Yaaaaaaay!
Just a thanks…
Thanks for all your support until now!
I’m glad there are so many nice people out there who want to help me out! Be sure, I won’t forget it!
Yours,
Cleo
RAM on the way…
Heya!
Just a quick update! A nice person agreed to send me an old RAM stick of his own. Its still on the way since about 2 weeks, but I hope when it finally arrives it will help me with my work.
BAD RAM?
Heya everypony!
It seems either the RAM or its slot on the mainboard where the real culprits. I tried testing the removed RAM stick in either of the other 3 slots, but neither worked, always many errors.
When I run the computer with just the 2 GB left, it seems to work, no problems… just real slow in most programs. 
So if anybody got a spare DDR2 2 GB stick and can send it to Germany, I would be most grateful!
If not, I will keep on like this and try to get enough funds and money to buy a new one soon.
Thanks for your support and time!
Cleo
Bad Computer Update
Heya everyone!
(I’m running Win7 32bit on a 8400E Pentium Duo Core 2 @ 3GHz with 4 GB RAM and a 8800 GTS 512 – 5,5 years old but still nice machine!)
Ok, so I had a terrible week with that machine. First day I got multiple Blue Screens of Death, not funny. Then World of Warcraft and other programs crashed randomly.
I first did standard measures, like dusting off the insides, scandisc, defrag, virus tests. Yielded little to no results. I did a memtest86 then and it showed multiple (hundreds of errors). -.-
Then I reopened the case, cleaned it again with pressure air and did the memtest again, this time zero errors.
I could run the computer then for almost 2 days until I got yesterday evening a BSoD again and multiple crashes.
Today it stayed like this, so I reopened it again, dusted off again (it’s now clean enough to eat from it -.- ) and did a memtest again. This time it showed many errors again. I did it thrice to be sure and everytime almost same errors.
So I decided to remove the inner RAM stick and tested it again (at 2 GB now). This time it passed 3 times again but with zero errors.
So either I am the victim of random events or I found the culprit. Tomorrow I’m going to test the “bad stick” on another slot, to see if its a bad slot or the stick is bad.
I don’t have the other memroy sticks anymore, was borrowed and I think I can’t get them again.
But now I’m running at 2 GB at the moment and going to try out some programs to see if anything happens again…. hate this uncertainty D:
Thanks again for your time!
Cleo
(I’ve added some photos of the memtest:)
Computer gone bad… D:
Hey everyone,
Once again, sorry for the long time without a post! But now its really urgent too
My computer started to give me beautiful blue screens of death *sighs* I can barely work,
don’t want to think of gaming.
I’m broke as always and if I can’t find some money quick even my college works will suffer
If you can spare some support, please feel free to do so, every tiny bit will be appreciated!
Thank you all for your time and patience,
Cleo
Modesty…
Hi everybody.
So it’s that time already again, christmas is near. Every year we start to think about our dear people and go out shopping gifts or prepare some wishing cards for our loved ones. I don’t like to open the box now about the discussion what the spirit of christmas should be, what we should think or do… it’s up to everybody what she or he thinks of the holidays.
But christmas is also a time to go into ourselves, to reflect on us and our world. So it happens that I stood at the trolley-car station (well it’s partly a sub in some parts of the city, but at this station its above ground) and the cars were racing around me on both sides of the street. I started to count the cars and decided that there must be at least a four-digit count per hour on both sides. Also I counted the passengers in every car. In every 20th car there was more than 1 person….
So what about it? Well, I can say what about it: What’s so important for everyone to drive around a car, built of a massive amount of resources, burning up precious resources the world created in millions of years… all the time? Some people need to buy some food, so they drive. Some people need to buy some gifts, or go to work, or come back from work… so they drive.
Is this necessary? Is this really all that important that you, every one of you stress out our world that much? Just so your legs don’t have to walk that much?
I think the cars are a very good, if not the prime example for the problem that goes around in our world today. Nobody cares about anything and only thinks of her- or himself. Where’s the modesty?
Well, I may be no buddhist monk, but I don’t even own a car. I don’t even own a smartphone. I don’t even own a microwave. It’s not that I couldn’t afford one, if I really wanted to. I could, but I choose to devote my time to studying, working on useful things, thinking more about the society than myself.
To me it seems everyone and everybody out there is on a huge ego trip, kicking everyone else in the nuts. I’m kinda sad to be born into this society. Some remote monk-life may be better suited for me sometimes….
But oh well, the world is a globe, a ball, we can’t run from each other, wherever we turn.
So people… try to stop center the universe on you, try to think about what you do. Be it using a car, buying a smart phone, a new computer or what else. Think… is this really necessary? Couldn’t I do something more useful with my money, with my power? I am unlucky if I am modest?
I wish everyone a happy christmas and a beautiful new year!
Cleo
First Donation!
Wheee… thanks for the first support and hopefully not the last!
Currently I am very busy for two presentations at the college, history seminars. But I hope at the weekend there will be time enough for more goodies in return.
Thank you so much, your support means a lot for me, as it reduces my sorrows a bit and I can concentrate on better things than money for food.
Life goes on… or: It’s time to fight!
Hello all!
It’s now a week since our dog went away, but life goes on and the sadness is calming down slowly but steady.
I managed to get PayPal back up and running, so if you want to support me, please feel free to donate! Every bit is welcome. My landlord now wants additional 700 € for electricity and water stuff… don’t know how to pay that at the moment. We will see, but there will be a way.
Well, in addition to that I have nothing much to say at the moment, only that I won’t give up and will fight better than ever!
See you soon, when I have something interesting to discuss with you again.
Your Cleo
Farewell my friend, my brother.
Now it has happened and I was not as prepared for it as I thought I would be. My nose, my eyes, my face has swollen red and the tears are running whenever I think of him, yet he is only an animal, wasn’t he?
This morning the cancer won the race finally, his liver swallowed by tumors. My father decided to euthanize him before the doctor’s praxis closed and we are living about 25 kilometers apart, so I couldn’t see him before. I’ve last seen our dog about 2 weeks ago, but I never suspected it to end this quickly. Hold your friends and family close to you, and visit them often. You never know when it will be the last time… life is so feeble sometimes.
I’m fighting with myself for every word here, and I dare to think how it will be when I have to speak for my mother and father someday. But I must be strong and the little soul of Tell, our dog, wouldn’t want me to give up or suffer for him too much.
He was a good dog, if not the best. For his race he was so gentle and friendly. You could have let him stay a day in kindergarten without attendance, he wouldn’t have hurt anybody. He was so funny, how he spread his legs apart when he lied down. How food was everything for him. He was always begging for some food, when you had something. And he was a brilliant hunter. The days my fater went to hunt with him was the best, he had a nose like no other dog, he could track so well. He was so brash often, when he yelled at you so you pick up a stick and throw it for him to hunt after (and maybe even return it). How he often slipped away to hunt some cat or deer for 30 minutes.
Most of all he was loyal. He went with us everywhere, and would have followed us through war and strife if need be. Dogs are so faithful and so was he. He was the best dog.
It was all too quick, too fast. Almost 10 years, and much too fast still.
I guess that’s just how life goes, and how life is. It’s nature after all.
We will all carry on, don’t doubt it.
I will miss you Tell. Wait for me. Wait for my dad and all of us, I hope we will be joined together again someday, finally.
I love you.
Machs gut Tell. Danke für all die schönen Jahre und all die Treue. Ich werde dich nie vergessen.
